Me, Saul??

I am currently studying "David: 90 days with a heart like his" by Beth Moore and it is wonderful! I am being challenged daily--yesterday the scripture was 1 Samuel 9:14-25 and I found that Saul suffered from low self-esteem---imagine that!
In 1 Sam. 9:21 "Saul answered, "But am I not a Benjamite, from the smallest tribe of Israel, and is not my clan the least of all the clans of the tribe of Benjamin? Why do you say such a thing to me?"
This is what Beth has to say about that: "How do we distinguish between godly humility and low self-esteem? One key lies in our focus. A person with godly humility looks to the Master. He or she neither exalts nor denigrates self, because to do either is to make self the center of our universe. when we're really serving Christ, our reputations and abilities simply cease to be so important. We must decrease so that He may increase."
Also, " ... a lack of confidence does not equal humility." Wow!! That really spoke to me because I have such a hard time accepting compliments or praise for something done well. Even though, deep down, I know that I did a good job, I don't want to appear boastful--which brings us to todays lesson.
From 1 Samuel 10:17-27 we learn that Saul was also a people pleaser. From Beth: "Rather than gratefully rejoicing in the privilege God was freely extending to him, Saul's concern ran to himself and what others would think of him."
Question in my book: " What has this desire caused you to do or not do in the past?"
My answer: It has caused me to make poor choices in the past and it has caused me not to grow in Christ like I should because I was too busy trying to please others and worrying about what others would think of me.
This is a wonderful study--something that I look forward to getting up for every morning!